Stages of a Homestudy

I now realize that there are at least three stages to the homestudy. I am sure there will be more but remember we are figuring this out as we go. From the time that we sent in our agency application in August until last week, it was Impatience. I just wanted to get the thing scheduled and over with. Sure, I obsessed over the adoption discussion boards and did some things to the house in an effort to prepare but I really just wanted to get it checked off the list. I wasn't nervous at all. Last week when we were contacted by the social worker and we scheduled the date and time, Impatience was followed by Panic. See post title "Homestudy Frenzy". Today, "Homestudy Eve", it is the stage of Complete Freak Out. Someone is going to be here tomorrow to look at our home, our lives, and most of all, us, to determine if we are fit to be parents. Sure, I think we will be great parents but you see when you adopt, your opinion doesn't count. It's the opinion of the agency, social worker, immigration and the Chinese officals that matter. My stomach hurts - I might cry, I might hurl - not sure which. I am sure that I am driving Jon crazy with all of my "What are you going to say if they ask...." questions. Don't get me wrong, of course we will be completely honest no matter what they ask. However, you can sound reasonably intelligent while being completely honest or you can sound like a dribbling idiot while being completely honest. I'm worried about the dribbling idiot part. Everyone says "Be yourself." I hope that is enough.
Poor Jon wasn't nervous at all until I pointed out that this one person's opinion of us could ruin it all. Now he might hurl.